Relaxing Into The Lull.

I do everything without stopping. Eric tells me that watching me eat can be kind of gross  because I barely stop to breathe. 

I apologize. That doesn’t sound very pleasant to watch or listen to.

Ever since I was a little kid, I have always been looking ahead to the next thing. Which in many ways is characteristic of all of us. We can’t seem to just settle into right now and trust that it’s just as important as what is to come.

We’re all waiting for the next thing.

I am waiting right now. Waiting for what I’m “supposed to be doing”.

I am in the lull between what was and what will be.

Friday was my last day at a job that I have had for 3 years. For many reasons, It was time for me to move on. 

So here I am, in the lull.

Right now, it’s the place between a job that I was ready to leave, and whatever is next. 

A place that normally I would shuffle through with my head down and a scowl on my face.

But finally after years of missing out I know now that I cannot possibly afford to waste it.

Wishing and waiting for what is next robs us of right now.

I will not let what’s next rob me of what’s now.

I have this gift of time with no expectations. 

What an opportunity. One that I cannot afford to waste with fear and the cultural pressure to “figure it out”.

Right now is a gift just like what’s next will be and what was before me was.

Every moment that we are living and breathing has purpose.

We can’t count on what’s next. All we have is right now.

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