Now What.

After writing my blog yesterday I had this feeling that It was incomplete, like some big part was missing.

It’s impossible to give steps on how to give God complete control over your life. I personally do not believe that saying a prayer at one time does this. I think it is done over and over again in the most vulnerable of ways. I usually feel closest to God when I’m at my messiest. There’s a peace, like somehow I had been trying to pick up all the pieces and finally I admitted that I couldn’t put them back together. Of course, I am very stubborn and so where I find God may be very different from where you find Him. But I do know this: He shows up. Your situation may not change at all, but He will show up.

There are also times in my life where I feel I’ve crossed the line into complete and utter human wretchedness, and for a little while I don’t feel like God shows up. And that’s okay too, because He’ll show up regardless and it’s all a part of our process.

I believe in a journey far more beautiful than we could ever imagine. A journey where our steps have been mapped out for us so carefully, so tenderly. I believe that “all things work together for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28)”, and maybe even for those who don’t love Him. I believe that the only way to fully taste the majesty of our King is to dive deep into the pain of this world.

Do you want to know the key to surrendering all to Jesus Christ? The key to feeling His peace and love like a blanket around you?

It’s this simple: just let go.

LET GO.

LET GO!

Let go of the diagnoses, the breakup, the marriage, the financial issues, the daily stresses that create a mountain too great to climb.

Let go of all of it. Because once you let go, it falls right into the hands of the Savior. And His hands are much stronger than your own.

A few years ago I read a book called “The Happiness Project”. It was a good read, lots of helpful tips on how to grasp happiness. But oh how lacking. Because, you see, happiness is not grasping anything, but letting go of everything.

Right now I feel a heaviness in my chest as all of the things that I have chosen not to let go of are bubbling up inside of me. Some of these things are things that I have to “let go of”  every day, every hour, every moment. Some I’ve been “letting go of” since I was a little girl. Some days I choose not to let go, out of stubbornness, or a need for control…I’m not really sure, but sometimes I do make that choice.  And those days usually suck. But regardless, It is all a part of this journey that God has chosen for me. And I am grateful for every moment.

-Jeremiah 29:11-

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”